We just finished up our 5th week of lecture and training here in Montana. It's crazy to think that I've already been here a month. My time during DTS is flying by so fast.
I want to start by saying thank you for all the random texts and phone calls from friends and family. It's all so encouraging, and I get so amped up every time I hear from someone back home. You guys are awesome, and I'm so lucky and blessed to have so much support. I got some amazing friends, that's for sure.
The School of Worship (SOW) and the Fall DTS just got back from their outreach this week. The SOW just got back from Costa Rica, and the Fall DTS just got back from the Philippines, Taiwan, Thailand, Iceland, Cambodia, South Africa, and one other place that I honestly can't remember. Yeah, they went everywhere. It was awesome catching up with a couple of awesome friends that were on those teams. They had AMAZING outreach stories! Crazy awesome God stories of people being saved, healed, restored, AAHH! It was so encouraging hearing their stories and I'm so excited to see what God is going to do on our outreach in Brazil.
Our entire team will be going to Seattle, Washington for Mini-Outreach. We'll be there from February 17-23 doing evangelism. I honestly have no idea what that's gonna look like. But if you could pray for opportunities to open up when we get there, that would be awesome.
I've been learning a lot about the Fear of the Lord. I've never really understood what it meant and quite honestly I've found it really confusing. God is our Father, He's our dad, and He loves us. But we're supposed to fear Him? If He's a dad that loves me unconditionally, and I feel safe running to Him with anything and everything, why should I fear Him?
Here is a very small portion of some notes I took on the subject:
Proverbs 8:13, Proverbs 16:6
God doesn't want us to sin (duh, right) because it breaks His heart along with hurting others and hurting ourselves. God doesn't want us to have the Fear of the Lord just so we have to follow rules. He is all about having the best for us, and He knows what's best for us. Sins are done a lot of time out of insecurities (money, food, relationships, a job, etc). We run to so many other things, but if all those things disappear, will we fully rely on God? God wants us to be so secure in Him that even if we lost EVERYTHING, we would still be ok because our lives aren't built around a bunch of insecurities.
Having the fear of the Lord means that you put Him in front of everything, you're living for Him, and follow His word wholeheartedly because you WANT to, not because you have to. In this life, do you wanna make a living or do you wanna make a life after God?
Father, you're awesome. Thank you so much for all that you've done just to have a relationship with me. I wanna do it right. I wanna be all in. I don't wanna do this Christian thing just for show, and I don't wanna update my blog with this prayer just because I know lots of people will be reading it. I want this to be a wholehearted cry out to you. Teach me how to walk in the fear of the Lord, hating sin and living in awe of you. Help me break all the securities I have in all this other junk, and help me find all of my security in you. I love you, I trust you, and I wanna find all my securities in you.
